Link is now over 3 months old! Hard to believe, I know. I just love watching him grow and develop every day. He’s now reaching for toys with success, laughing when tickled and just for kicks every once in awhile, holding all of his weight while standing, bringing everything he can get his hands on up to his mouth, yelling to get my attention, watching me in the kitchen, and expecting to be entertained constantly. I cannot believe how well he’s been growing lately! He’s really filling out. Mom’s really happy about that.

So life has become a bit of a waiting game—just counting down until our little boy arrives. Only about 6 1/2 more weeks, which sounds so close but at the same time it seems like an eternity away! Everything in my life has become focused on his arrival. Work has become painfully sluggish as I’m slowly being phased out of the picture. I have no more motivation to go above and beyond because in the end, who would it benefit? So while at work, I sit and stew over all the things I need to accomplish before the “deadline” of June 1st. You would laugh if you knew how many times I look at craigslist.org everyday looking for great deals on needed baby items. I’ve spent hours upon hours figuring out all the hoops that come with maternity leave, taking disability, calculating sick and vacation time, ensuring there isn’t a lapse with health insurance, budgeting, etc. I could puke. I find myself surfing through just about every baby/pregnancy site on the web, hoping that somehow that will make the pregnancy pass.

I can’t focus on anything else other than having this baby and giving birth still weighs heavily on my mind. I just can’t believe that I, me, moi, will actually be giving birth in the very near future! I’ve tried to explain the feeling to a couple people, and I don’t think it made sense. To me it kinda feels like getting close to your wedding day. It’s something you always pictured growing up, but it was always in the future. That’s how I feel about this baby. I’ve always been excited to have children, but it’s always been something I wanted in the future. So now that it’s actually here, it’s a bit scary!

Miles and I have been attending our weekly child birthing classes, and they really are helping to boost my confidence. Something I do know about myself is that I am much more confident about something the more educated I am about it. I take pride in being an informed consumer. I’m starting to gather enough information to make the big decisions for my birth plan. There really is so much to learn! So with all of this baby stuff goin’ on in my head, I feel like there’s not room for much else!

One thing I like to think about though, is how pleasantly surprised I was when I got married. I always thought that marriage was a good thing, and I think I had adequately prepared mentally for how hard marriage was going to be. But, I totally underestimated how wonderful it would be! I hope to be pleasantly surprised once again with this new addition to our family!

A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for.
Author Unknown

Diaper backward spells repaid. Think about it.
Marshall McLu

If one feels the need of something grand, something infinite, something that makes one feel aware of God, one need not go far to find it. I think that I see something deeper, more infinite, more eternal than the ocean in the expression of the eyes of a little baby when it wakes in the morning and coos or laughs because it sees the sun shining on its cradle.
Vincent Van Gogh

A baby is an inestimable blessing and bother.
Mark Twain

Babies are always more trouble than you thought — and more wonderful.
Charles Osgood

Having a baby changes the way you view your in-laws. I love it when they come to visit now. They can hold the baby and I can go out.
Matthew Broderick

Families with babies and families without babies are sorry for each other.
Ed Howe

Always kiss your children goodnight – even if they’re already asleep.
H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

The moment a child is born,
the mother is also born.
She never existed before.
The woman existed, but the mother, never.
A mother is something absolutely new.
Rajneesh

A father is someone who carries pictures where his money used to be.
Anon

This is the fixed gear bike project I’ve been working for the past month. Michelle sees it as a way for me to use hand tools, instead of the computer, and become more of a man. It’s incomplete right now, because I’ve been waiting on a new fork I ordered a few weeks ago.